Matt Ryan Almost Took His Life – Walk With Him
Suicide. It's not an easy topic to tackle. Stigma still exists. An open dialogue is key to prevention. Let's start one.
After being at 94.3 The Point for over ten years, you, my listeners have become my friends and family. There's not much about me that I don't share on the air.
I'm very vocal about my struggle with mental health. Why? We all need to understand that all mental illness is usually out of the control of the person dealing with it. It's no different than someone who is born with a medical condition that requires them to take medicine to manage their health. Having a mental illness doesn't make you less of a person, it doesn't make you weak, and it doesn't make you unworthy of respect, opportunity, and life.
Here's my story.
I was never an outgoing kid. I can remember worrying myself sick about everything. When I was a sophomore in high school I began feeling depressed and anxious all of the time. As the year went on, the depression got worse. I remember a particular day clearly. I was sitting in the cafeteria with a few friends and some others that barely knew me. One of the girls in that group found me extremely annoying. My depression had hit an all-time low and I planned to take my life that day. It wasn’t a passing thought, I was going to end my life when I got home from school. I had never said anything to anyone, but I spoke of my plans at the lunch table that day. I could have subconsciously been asking for help, but I was more or less telling them I wouldn’t be at lunch tomorrow. Lunch wrapped up as usual and the day continued.
When it became time for PE, I didn’t get dressed. I didn’t care. I sat in the bleachers as the rest of the class hit the track. I spent that time thinking and planning. Towards the middle of the period, I noticed a woman walk from the school and over to my PE teacher. The two began to walk over to me. I figured I was being written up for not participating. The teacher and this woman came over to me and asked me to walk back to the building with them. I was told we were going to the principal’s office. When the woman opened the door the principal was standing there, and so was my mother visibly upset.
Unknown to me, the woman who walked me to the office was the school’s therapist. Someone reported my threat of suicide to the teacher who ran a club I was a part of. Little did I know that the person who said something was not one of my friends, it was that girl that found me annoying and hardly knew me. It turns out, I hardly knew her. We were in the same club and I didn’t even realize it. The point is, she heard something, so she said something. If she hadn’t, I wouldn't be writing this now.
I immediately went to a doctor and was diagnosed and treated for massive depressive disorder, and generalized anxiety disorder. These are all things that I deal with every day. I like to think that I make personal progress a little at a time.
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You are loved and important.
In years past, the walk has taken place in Belmar. However, due to COVID, the walk will be virtual this year. You can walk wherever you are. It could be inside on the treadmill, or around your block.
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I've raised my fundraising goal to $1,000 this year. Any amount that you could donate would mean the world.
The Jersey Shore fundraising goal has never been higher. Together, we are striving to raise $225,000 for AFSP. We will do it.
Half of the total monies raised will go to AFSP’s national to support research funding and our national education, advocacy, and support programs. The remaining half will stay in this community and will be spent on local efforts for education and prevention, advocacy, and support.
This year, the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention will be hosting Out of the Darkness experiences to safely connect, learn, and support each other. There will be seminars and guest speakers. As always, life-saving resources will be available.
AFSP is a voluntary health organization that gives those affected by suicide a nationwide community empowered by research, education, and advocacy to take action against this leading cause of death.
AFSP is the leader in the fight against suicide. They fund research, create educational programs, advocate for public policy, and support survivors of suicide loss.
Thanks to Walkers and Donors like you, AFSP has been able to set a goal to reduce the annual suicide rate by 20% by 2025.
I hope you'll walk with me! If not, please consider making a donation.